“theres nothing worse than not knowing where your phone is…”
People can walk
a girl i knew growing up - i never knew her very well, we would see each other every so often because our parents were good friends - has posted on facebook that she hates mother’s day. about a year ago, her mother was diagnosed with stage four brain cancer. her mother’s health has slowly deteriorated since then. now she is bloated from the ongoing chemo, she has lost most cognitive abilities, and she can barely walk. this girl dropped out of college (half-way through her first year) in chicago to move home to san francisco to be with her mother, father, and fifteen year-old sister.
i don’t know what this post is for. it’s not an attempt at pity, it’s not supposed to be a sob story. just a brief recounting of one woman’s story which i happened to be reminded of today on mother’s day.
i wish i could do something for them. again, i barely know the girl, but i read the post describing her mother’s condition and i think about the fact that i have no place in this event, i have little to no attachment to it, and yet i wish there was something i could do. i could send her flowers. but that would be somehow both invasive and impersonal. really, it’s just not my place to do anything at all.
and yet that makes me so sad. i can’t do anything about it, but i know i can’t do nothing. or maybe this is the human condition. or maybe i have to transcend this. or maybe things change and i just have to do what i can. i don’t know, but i feel lost right now.
all i know is that she ought to be remembered. misha (the daughter), noushin (the mother), the world has so much love for you.